About everything. I just need you to listen. Will you hear me out?
I can’t talk with this about anyone because everyone I talk to… they get the wrong ideas about what I am trying to say.
Well, I decided to quit what I have loved the most for the past 7 years. It just became boring and sadly I didnt love it anymore. At first, I thought I was just going through a spell and didn’t tell anyone for months. Then I opened up to my mom about what was going on. Somehow she understood. I felt like maybe she even knew more then I did. It was all so confusing. None of it made sense… How could I just WANT to let something like this go?? How could I get rid of the one consistent thing in my life?? And how could anyone tell me that they understood when I didn’t understand myself?? But then I realized something. No one really did understand what I was feeling. And for awhile. I didn’t. It was unfortunate but it all just boiled down to not LOVING it anymore. I grew out of something I grew up with. It’s heartbreaking to leave it all behind.
But, it’s time. And, sadly this is just the beginning of it all.
